In our book, and in almost every newsletter we write, we talk constantly about the burdens that parents of children with bipolar disorder must shoulder and overcome, all the while attempting to make decisions with the clinicians who work in an area of medicine that is still in its infancy.

But we’ve never composed a stand-alone list that lets others look at what the parents must grapple with and withstand–in all its stark and disturbing reality.

This list, sadly, cannot even be described as “exhaustive or complete,” but as Mother’s Day approaches, and Father’s Day is just a calendar turn away, the parents coping with a child (or children) with bipolar disorder deserve special recognition and honor for their enormous valor as they:

  • Look at a very young and much-loved child with a nagging fear that something is seriously wrong.
  • Feel the external world bearing down on them, advising them to take multiple parenting classes or to tune into Nanny 911. Feel infantilized and ashamed as people offer up criticism and advice.
  • Accept that they need help from a professional, but feel a stranglehold of fear.
  • Come to learn that there are only 4,101 child psychiatrists in the entire United States–many wary of making this diagnosis.
  • Watch their child and other siblings besieged by an illness for which there is little diagnostic or treatment consensus in the field of psychiatry.
  • Receive multiple diagnoses such as ADHD, OCD, ODD, PDD, anxiety disorder, or simple depression.
  • Come to accept that the child has a very serious psychiatric illness and make the agonizing decision to begin a trial of medications (if they can find a psychiatrist who can treat their child, or who has open hours).
  • Read the package inserts of medications which list possible side effects, as well as frightening black-box labels, and watch apprehensively for any signs of serious trouble such as lithium toxicity, tardive dyskinesia, Stevens-Johnson syndrome, new-onset type-II diabetes, or pancreatitis.
  • Attempt to explain to a child how the doctor is trying to help and what the medications are going to do; subsequently they watch their child experience distressing early side effects that include nausea and diarrhea and severe drowsiness; or worse, the paradoxical effects that produce the opposite reaction of what the drug is being used to treat.
  • Deal with the disillusionment of a failed medication trial and explain to that child why those pills didn’t work and tell him or her: “We’re going to try something else,” knowing that they may have to repeat that phrase a number of times and thus begin a new round of side effects.
  • Have to get a child who has a needle phobia to a lab for a blood draw to determine drug levels. (This experience alone could turn one’s hair grey.)
  • Watch children’s weight balloon upward and their self-esteem plummet as they take certain medications that can be very effective, but that may also cause weight gain.
  • Become an all too familiar face at the pharmacy, experiencing shock at the cost of each prescription.
  • Have to suffer the ignorance of people in the media, who–in a cavalier manner–discuss over-diagnosis and over-medication. Moreover, these parents hear certain clinicians in the field publicly utter insulting sound bites such as: “This is an easy way for parents to let themselves off the hook;” or “This is simply the diagnosis du jour.”
  • Have to listen to the word “No!” from a child one hundred times each morning, but be unable to assert the parental “No” as it will predictably trigger a meltdown.
  • Suffer the physical abuse of a child raging out of control, and experience crippling shame because they can’t manage their own child.
  • Are set adrift in a house that has become a war zone.
  • Deal with feelings that alternate from extreme anger at the child to the most unbelievable yearning to help that child, from anger at the outside world for failing to realize what is happening to them, to exhaustion in trying to deal with the child with some modicum of equanimity.
  • Become perplexed that their child often does well in the outside world, only to return to the safe harbor of home to rage at a parent (most often the mother), leading to the suspicions of outsiders that “Something must be going on in that household, and with that woman;” or “She seems so nice, but you never really know people;” or “He can keep it together at school, so he must be a very manipulative kid.
  • Have to mount a siege each school-day morning simply to get a child suffering a sleep/wake reversal up and out to school.
  • Hesitate to answer a phone, afraid that it will be the vice-principal in charge of disciplinary action calling to report an “incident” at school.
  • Come close to earning a degree in educational law so as to work with the school system. Keep in constant contact with the teachers and psychologist or aide in order to assess what’s working and where yet another accommodation may help.
  • Waylay careers and reduce household income so a parent can stay at home to deal with the child and spend hours at doctors’ and therapists’ and tutors’ offices.
  • Experience the heartbreak of knowing that their child is rarely invited to birthday parties. Conversely, if he or she is invited, the event might be overstimulating thus provoking some kind of meltdown, and effectively putting an end to any such celebrations in the future.
  • Fear that their child will become aggressive with kids on the playground or in the neighborhood, thus earning disdain and a cold shoulder from the other parents.
  • Want the world to understand, but fear that the stigma will further isolate the child and their family.
  • Attempt to explain the almost inexplicable to the siblings, and to help them cope with the chaos in the household. Feel overwhelming guilt that the family is always fractured as one parent goes to a soccer game while the other stays home with the unstable child; or that a rare dinner at a restaurant devolves into an embarrassing, abruptly-ended event as parents race the child and siblings home and away from disapproving diners.
  • Are paralyzed if a child becomes manic and hypersexual and says inappropriate things or makes inappropriate gestures.
  • See their marriages become shaky as the stress of coping with this illness leaves parents little time to relate to each other and most conversations begin to center around the problems of their ill child.
  • Listen with horror as their child screams, “I don’t want to live anymore;” or “I’d be better off dead.”


It is hard to fathom how these parents get through a day. Their reality is simply unimaginable to the outside world, and their lives–until their children are stable–are a virtual stew of guilt and powerlessness, anxiety, fear, uncertainty, confusion, blame, and shame. These are feelings that most of us would do anything to avoid, but all are feelings that a family who lives with bipolar disorder must endure for months and years at a time.

And yet, we see family after family find the help, learn to cope, steady their footing, and move on with their lives. And then we see them turn around and offer a lifeline of information and support to others who must walk the same path, only now no longer alone.

Some people think of Mother’s and Father’s Day as Hallmark holidays; but we see them as an opportunity to celebrate these parents: their grit and their commitment, their love and their humanity….Parents who have never stopped trying to help their children–against seemingly overwhelming odds.

Take good care of yourselves.

We send you our best,

Janice Papolos and Demitri Papolos, M.D.

The Child Bipolar Questionnaire is available free-of-charge in English, Spanish, Portuguese, Polish, and French at the Web site of the Juvenile Bipolar Research Foundation

In response to many requests from parents and clinicians, the JBRF developed programming for the automatic scoring of the Child Bipolar Questionnaire. The result is a printed score-sheet listing important scores and their diagnostic indications, as well as dimensions of impairment indicated by item responses. Parents and clinicians may purchase this service by using PayPal.


  1. Thank you, thank you for these kind words. My entire body relaxed- wow- you GET us and what we are going through!!! You continue to give us HOPE for each day. Thank you for your amazing work for us and our dear children. Much love

  2. I started tearing up as I read this list. By the last sentance I was in a full blown sob. I have been in a living hell with my son for ten years, since he was diagnosed at two. I thought things were bad, till two days ago, when he had his first hypersexual experience,the one thing I was always so grateful I didn’t have to deal with. My guts have been twisted for two days. I need to talk to someone so badly, but their is no one who understands this. The comfort this brought me is more than I can put in words. I felt like I was going to have a nervous breakdown, but seeing my experience in someone elses words, helps me hang on. Thank you for this.

  3. Thank you so much for the work you do…I have become severely depressed and overwhelmed after realizing what I have been dealing with for over 6 years is Bipolar in my child. School has been so hard and so has co-parenting with his father. I feel so lost sometimes but feel hopeful that I can take things one day at a time…

    Thank you for this list – it is everything I have been going through!!

  4. This all brought tears of recognition. Here are a few more:
    Deal with being lectured to by a school principal about your child’s behavior – repeatedly.
    Being reported to Child Protective Services.
    Having to hire a lawyer in order to get your child the school services he needs.
    Break down crying when someone finally asks how it’s going with your child – and it hasn’t been going well at all.

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