Now that I have been taking ketamine for a while, I have had many changes in my life, emotions and myself.

Finding A.

Raging fires

Pouring shattering glass

Chaos at every corner

And every eye’s blink

This Hell is no more

Smiling faces

Repetitive laughter

Happiness is shown on their cheeks

There is no more anger or sadness in this house

The only thing missing is A. herself

She no longer knows who she is

She no longer knows what to do

She has never been a teenager before

She again is on a journey

 Not alone this time

But yet again it has come to be the time of finding

A.

Update: Changes

Now that I have been taking ketamine for a while, I have had many changes in my life, emotions and myself. I no longer am afraid of being alone; I’m not constantly having my head tell me that death is better than life; I can finally be a teenager a “normal” teenager. Being a normal teenager was something I had pretty much given up on till recently. But now hallelujah!  I , Me, A. B., has a boy friend, I have friends, school isn’t a death sentence anymore I can learn things because my head isn’t  clouded with images of the teacher turning and stabbing me or other lovely images like that. Anyways I can to the movies with my friends, I can be dropped off at the mall ALONE! Without my worrying her heart to pieces that I’m going to need her in five minutes. Here’s a great one I can hold my tongue and not hit or scratch or fight with my sister and with that I calmly let her blow up at me and SHE gets in trouble NOT me! My life has been turned around and given new life. The only thing I have to deal with is learning how to be a teenager and finding out who I really am, which is so much easier than battling something you can’t touch ,smell , or well seeing it and hearing it is when it’s really bad bud you get the point, it sucks.  SO basically I’m a whole new me or what is really meant to be if I was given the genes for bipolar. Yup, Ketamine brings the best kinds of change it gives you the choice and the weapons to fight to be well…you.