Now that I have been taking ketamine for a while, I have had many changes in my life, emotions and myself.
Pouring shattering glass
Chaos at every corner
And every eye’s blink
This Hell is no more
Happiness is shown on their cheeks
There is no more anger or sadness in this house
The only thing missing is A. herself
She no longer knows who she is
She no longer knows what to do
She has never been a teenager before
She again is on a journey
Not alone this time
But yet again it has come to be the time of finding
Now that I have been taking ketamine for a while, I have had many changes in my life, emotions and myself. I no longer am afraid of being alone; I’m not constantly having my head tell me that death is better than life; I can finally be a teenager a “normal” teenager. Being a normal teenager was something I had pretty much given up on till recently. But now hallelujah! I , Me, A. B., has a boy friend, I have friends, school isn’t a death sentence anymore I can learn things because my head isn’t clouded with images of the teacher turning and stabbing me or other lovely images like that. Anyways I can to the movies with my friends, I can be dropped off at the mall ALONE! Without my worrying her heart to pieces that I’m going to need her in five minutes. Here’s a great one I can hold my tongue and not hit or scratch or fight with my sister and with that I calmly let her blow up at me and SHE gets in trouble NOT me! My life has been turned around and given new life. The only thing I have to deal with is learning how to be a teenager and finding out who I really am, which is so much easier than battling something you can’t touch ,smell , or well seeing it and hearing it is when it’s really bad bud you get the point, it sucks. SO basically I’m a whole new me or what is really meant to be if I was given the genes for bipolar. Yup, Ketamine brings the best kinds of change it gives you the choice and the weapons to fight to be well…you.