I’m a 37 year old male who, for as long as I can remember, has lived with:
- constant racing thoughts
- random but frequent disturbing thoughts
- unpredictable emotional reactions and outbursts to everything and anything
Overall life was: boredom, which lead to frustration, resulting in anger, rinse, repeat. I was diagnosed with Adult ADD and for years I took stimulants. For a while I thought they calmed me because they let me finally think and concentrate. But the stimulants just sped me up to my naturally racing thoughts–they didn’t cure the real problem. Eventually, the stimulants ran their course: a tragic downward spiral. Which was painful to myself and my loved ones, but was fortunate because it lead me to Dr.P. And my new life.
Shorty after Dr.P diagnosed me properly with bipolar (‘fear of harm’, specifically) we began on ketamine. Once the medication began working (more on that later) I began to feel what is best described as “a shift”. A shift of the way my mind processes and thinks, the way I feel about things, and most importantly the way I react (which I’m sure was a blessing for my wife and child.) For the first time in my life I react to things in a measured, balanced manner. I feel like I’m moving along with life, not constantly over-reacting to it. An entire layer of self-created over-emotion has been removed, and I see life for the first time: in focus and coming at me at a comfortable speed. I’m out of my own way. If this sounds like I “feel” any less, nothing could be further from the truth. I feel love, fear, happiness, even boredom, but I feel them for what they really are, not something I’ve made them out to be. I’m truly calm and happy for the first time in my life. Because of Dr.P’s treatment.
One thing that needs to be said is that getting the treatment to work wasn’t easy. It took months. Despite Dr.P’s best efforts and sympathy, it was hell. I wanted to give up many times. I was one of the few who did not respond right away, and had to keep increasing the dose, over many weeks. If you are in the same situation I have two important points to share. First, don’t give up. Yeah I know, I didn’t want to hear it either. But don’t. To keep you busy while not giving up, is point number two: Perfect the administration. Perfect ways to get as much of the prescribed dose in your system as possible each time, try different technics, be as efficient as possible, and focus. There is a lot of room for error, so you need to practice. I know it’s hard, but it helped me finally reach effectiveness. If you are having trouble with administration, Ask Dr P. to put you in touch with me and maybe I can help.
Dr.P and Ketermine saved my life. He says he isn’t a miracle worker, but life is a miracle. And he gave me a whole new one.